i wish i had known

I wish I had known it was last time I see you,

I would have taken your picture in my heart.

I wish I had known it was last time I made you laugh,

I would have never let your lips go down at all.

I wish I had known this was last time I will talk to you,

I would have told u all inside me which I kept in forever.

I wish I had known it was last time I will look in your eyes,

I would have laid down all my life in there looking for a spark.

I wish I had known this is the last time I hold your hand,

I would have never taken my hand off and let it go.

I wish I would had known it is last time I am around you,

I would have caught that essence in me for my life.

I wish I had known this is last time I will kiss you,

I would have never retreated from that feeling .

I wish I had known this is last time you will hug and hold me,

I would have taken my last breadth in your hand.

I wish I had known u will not be mine any more,

I wish I had known we won’t be together again,

I just wish , I just wish forever………

Now there is some thing really good happening ........ my favorite season is knocking the door step..... the deep blue sky covered with hovering over with the clouds , floating through the horizon.....small kids looking at them trying finding the shapes they see........ playing with them from far far away....they find the smile fr the on there faces just looking at those clouds....... then there is a drop of rain..... a drop on there face..... refreshes the feeling of there heart....the joy the sanity covering the mud due to water coming from the heaven..... the smell of the blossom and flower...... the hooting of the Nightingale from the various fruit bearing trees....... lovers walking in the rain ....holding there hands together........showing the love and affection toward one other.....

For me this this season got what i need the most in my life....yes....love ......affection..... truth....brings me closer to my self..... to my soul .....to love of my life......to what i want to be.....

the smell of the damp ground....the sweetly flowing through my self....through my heart..... refreshing me...taking away my sorrow...... my frustration....... giving me new hope to resist ....to fight....to live beyond time and space....... to stand on a way.... with rain pouring over my head.... passing through my heart....giving me a little chill to my heart..... lift me in air....brings the joy which i lost years back.....playing in rain....with kids ...wetting ....smashing water frm ur feet.....every thing is back.....its back with my life.....its back with thunder n shower.......

i don't knw wat to say

well to start with its a simple sawal.....yes a sawal....not a question...... why is it that we don't know the answers of the most important questionS ever ........why don't it strike to us when some one we always loved say " i love you!!! " .....why cant we react.....we are standing there dumb struck...... then it strikes.... "idiot she is saying i love you .....why are u acting so stupid....???? reply to her moron....." then our eyes go on to her face checking out the sweet smile..... the look on her face.....hey what that look is....??? oh!!! yes she is expecting the answer moron ......answer her....tell her ........tell ......?????no knucklehead just scream ya just scream n shout tell her how much i love you.......

u are about to open out ur mouth.....to tell wat u feel abt her....its just time....she should know...everything thats there in ur heart.....which keep on altering its function whenever u see "HER".....some time its running as fast as shatabdi {i guess faster} when ever she smiled and approached toward you......with hairs flying (please use ur imagination or drive it from any hindi movie) and the next second ur heart is as slow as bullock cart the second she use to pass from your side......what immense damage she might have done in those 2 minutes no one can ever understand...... physical , mental and emotional all kind of turmoils in just some seconds..... but i m ready to take my heart with all that punishment once again....... in fact that once again never lasted.....

and now i am here about to say what i always felt...... just three damn words......

but why the hell is it not coming out....i have to push my self to limit....shoot moron shoot....tell her...... ur eyes drifted again to her lips......yup the lips u can kiss the 1 u always wanted to kiss ....so just speak.....tell her....but wats this....smile gone....expression changed.....she is turning.....nooooooooooooooo but sadly yes....she is going going going...... i realize it will be late....... run idiot run....catch her before some one else does...... i past her.....in desperate need to tell her finally....on my knees......in my heart"can it rain please....????" and lets assume it rained ....assumption always work.....then i say nope not say but tell her that i love her with my heart and sole...... she is crying .....no i m not.... i got wat i wanted....... n even more..... a bent and a hug...the n sweet kiss on cheeks...... then my its my turn.....a sweet kiss on her sweet sweet lips....something which could have happened 20 minutes before....had i knwn wat to say...... had i.....i will curse those 20 minutes fr ever ..... most wasted 20 minutes....but yet atlast....i m here....with my girl with my love.......

p.s. none of this ever happened to me so please for GOD sake don't assume too much....ENJOY......