"You got no strings on me"
For so long I wished to say these words to every one I know.... to every individual that I have met.... I am sure you have felt that too.... somewhere deep inside you... lurking every time someone asks something you do not want to answer.... Every time you feel a bit dishearten by mocking of your respective societies.... Every time you get in argument with your mom and you loose..... OF COURSE you loose.... Who can ever win against a Woman right...... :P
For all those who know me.... I am not the kind of guy who expresses much of deeper feeling.... Yes I have been known to be blunt and outright about what I feel at times.... But the deeper feelings I hide them.... I started writing again to let those out.... All my INGLORIOUS THOUGHTS left loose to the world....
I have struggled with Strings which we call relationship.... I don't really understand them all.... Actually I do not understand any of them.... I don't know understand relationship between parents and children.... I see parents sweating for there children.... Most if not all.... But then I see same parents do not having any regard for their own parents.... But they want their children to love them....
I have struggled through love..... I never understood it.... the dynamics of love.... I have been in love.... But how do u fall out of it.... The guy or girl you have been saying love you too becomes obsolete.... You start getting disgusted by thought of them..... U are so annoyed with them that they become source of your jokes... but then most of time you get back with them and repeat this vicious cycle.... I understand feelings can die..... I understand you might not have same care for them.... But how do you loose the respect you had for them.... Why abuse them.... harm them.... make mockery of them.... Even if the ending was bad... starting wasn't.... the journey was not.... but yet people forget the whole journey and only focus gets on the end.... Why forget the good time.... remember them they can help you respect them..... But alas the whole concept cheats me....
One thing I never really struggled with was Friendship.... Since the time I made my own meaning of friends.... And mind it F.R.I.E.N.D.S had a lot to do with it..... I understood that this is one relation we forge deliberately.... we work through it.... You do not become friends at 1st site.... You do not become friends to gain something.... You do not become friends for anything..... You just becomes friends.... Passing through the inferno that induces Trust, Solidatory, Companionship in you.... An idea that there be someone to catch u....
For me I have always been the catcher.... Look after guy.... Friends would think don't worry he got ours back.... But some how I have always been let down.... I don't know why.... May be I wasn't good friend.... May be because I take friendship too seriously..... Its funny how it is.... Someone new comes along and you loose a friend.....
in Big Bang theory sheldon says "when someone starts a new relationship he/she is bound to loose one or two friends." someway that friend is always me.....
may be I am wrong.... may be I am out of my bloody mind.... And I am sure That i am but i have seen quite too often friends falling pray to love.... Friends who use to visit you every week wont show their faces for months.... You feel unwelcomed..... U feel that you do not belong to the group that you started.... The friends who became part of your family.... visiting your houses too engaged in their respective ordeals of relationship that they tend to forget that there was something beyond that relationship.... That there was a friend that stood by them.... Helped them.... Guided them..... for them ur existence becomes unimportant..... they form new bonds.... but in the whole process they forgot about the bonds that did exist.....
may be I failed to understand this relationship too.... may be I expected too much.... or may be I got too involved.... may be i screwed it up somehow..... But I know that with repeated experience that what I thought about friendship is wrong too.....
the Unbeaded strings we attach with people..... in any way..... in any form.... physical mental emotional seems to have forsaken me.... Alone and funny part is I am enjoying the loneliness.... somehow....
may be I really Dont have any strings on me......
For so long I wished to say these words to every one I know.... to every individual that I have met.... I am sure you have felt that too.... somewhere deep inside you... lurking every time someone asks something you do not want to answer.... Every time you feel a bit dishearten by mocking of your respective societies.... Every time you get in argument with your mom and you loose..... OF COURSE you loose.... Who can ever win against a Woman right...... :P
For all those who know me.... I am not the kind of guy who expresses much of deeper feeling.... Yes I have been known to be blunt and outright about what I feel at times.... But the deeper feelings I hide them.... I started writing again to let those out.... All my INGLORIOUS THOUGHTS left loose to the world....
I have struggled with Strings which we call relationship.... I don't really understand them all.... Actually I do not understand any of them.... I don't know understand relationship between parents and children.... I see parents sweating for there children.... Most if not all.... But then I see same parents do not having any regard for their own parents.... But they want their children to love them....
I have struggled through love..... I never understood it.... the dynamics of love.... I have been in love.... But how do u fall out of it.... The guy or girl you have been saying love you too becomes obsolete.... You start getting disgusted by thought of them..... U are so annoyed with them that they become source of your jokes... but then most of time you get back with them and repeat this vicious cycle.... I understand feelings can die..... I understand you might not have same care for them.... But how do you loose the respect you had for them.... Why abuse them.... harm them.... make mockery of them.... Even if the ending was bad... starting wasn't.... the journey was not.... but yet people forget the whole journey and only focus gets on the end.... Why forget the good time.... remember them they can help you respect them..... But alas the whole concept cheats me....
One thing I never really struggled with was Friendship.... Since the time I made my own meaning of friends.... And mind it F.R.I.E.N.D.S had a lot to do with it..... I understood that this is one relation we forge deliberately.... we work through it.... You do not become friends at 1st site.... You do not become friends to gain something.... You do not become friends for anything..... You just becomes friends.... Passing through the inferno that induces Trust, Solidatory, Companionship in you.... An idea that there be someone to catch u....
For me I have always been the catcher.... Look after guy.... Friends would think don't worry he got ours back.... But some how I have always been let down.... I don't know why.... May be I wasn't good friend.... May be because I take friendship too seriously..... Its funny how it is.... Someone new comes along and you loose a friend.....
in Big Bang theory sheldon says "when someone starts a new relationship he/she is bound to loose one or two friends." someway that friend is always me.....
may be I am wrong.... may be I am out of my bloody mind.... And I am sure That i am but i have seen quite too often friends falling pray to love.... Friends who use to visit you every week wont show their faces for months.... You feel unwelcomed..... U feel that you do not belong to the group that you started.... The friends who became part of your family.... visiting your houses too engaged in their respective ordeals of relationship that they tend to forget that there was something beyond that relationship.... That there was a friend that stood by them.... Helped them.... Guided them..... for them ur existence becomes unimportant..... they form new bonds.... but in the whole process they forgot about the bonds that did exist.....
may be I failed to understand this relationship too.... may be I expected too much.... or may be I got too involved.... may be i screwed it up somehow..... But I know that with repeated experience that what I thought about friendship is wrong too.....
the Unbeaded strings we attach with people..... in any way..... in any form.... physical mental emotional seems to have forsaken me.... Alone and funny part is I am enjoying the loneliness.... somehow....
may be I really Dont have any strings on me......
